I absolutely love the spring time...it makes me incredibly happy.

Kitchen Chair

I found this...i wrote it a few years ago and i have to say it is one of my favorites.



There she has sat for many years and doubtless will for more.
Solitary upon her kitchen chair with her eyes directed towards the door.
For a time, she had unquestionable tenderness, that long ago set adrift.
It slipped away not hastily but with each passing tide would shift.
Upon the day it left her she ceased to feel complete.
And now she spends her lonely days perched upon this seat.
Waiting, listless, longing for that feeling of tenderness to return.
But now this task she has set before her remains her one concern.
To wait, to watch, silently in her space.
For another chance, another time or place.
She imagines there it stands, waiting, just out of her sight.
But never leaving her kitchen chair has now become her plight.
To search she feels she musn't. To leave she somehow fears.
What if in her searching it simply returns after all these years.
The longing, completely consuming, the desire always there.
For now she remains waiting, solitary, upon the kitchen chair.

Molly 2007

"Get a Bicycle. You will not regret it, if you live" Mark Twain.

I lived.

I now have too many hangers...and need to go to buffalo exchange with most of the ridiculously large pile of clothes now on my bedroom floor. But first...i am headed to go check out a new camera para mi. Then to the greenbelt with Liam. Then possibly to Ginger man for pint night. Who knows...it is an absolutely gorgeous day outside.

Molly is going to run away

You're Sitting in a chair...IN THE SKY!

I am tired. However i have no desire to sleep. Life is just making me tired. I want it to be June 15th. I want to be on a plane. I want to be trekking through a cloud forest. Or wandering through a loud market. Sleeping in an uncomfortable bed, that makes me homesick. Hiking up a volcano to watch the sunrise. Sitting with my feet in the sand on a beach I've never been to; staring out at the waves crashing. Waking up somewhere new. Riding on a loud uncomfortable bus. Talking to someone I've never met in a language i don't know very well. Writing those i miss. Spending all day walking, taking pictures, experiencing life, eating, seeing...living.

panama

Since i didn't make it down this way last trip to central America...i have decided to add panama to the itinerary

To Do List

1. Purchase plan ticket.
2. Purchase a new camera.
3. Save Mucho Mas dinero. (time to settle down with spending for a bit)
4. Pick up some extra shifts at work.
5. Find a dog sitter for my animal friends.
6. Pack my bags and get ready to go...
7. Cause i'm leavin on a jet plane.

Tell me do you believe
In the girl that is me
With her feet to your feet
Well that’s all that I need

Cause time will go
And we may be
Far apart I know
But as far as I can see
This is so good
There’s no need for change
It’s alright with me
It’s as simple as it should be
Simple as it should be -----Tristan Prettyman

"Wisdom ceases to be wisdom when it becomes too proud to weep, too grave to laugh, and too selfish to seek other than itself."
Kahlil Gibran


"Love and doubt have never been on speaking terms."
Kahlil Gibran

Saving the Date.

the date is set...no later than June 15th...that now gives me three months...got to get it together. 2 weeks in Costa Rica and 2 weeks somewhere else.

cause i really liked this one.

human life occurs only once, and the reason we cannot determine which of our decisions are good and which are bad is that in a given situation we can make only one decision; we are not granted a second, third, or fourth life in which to compare various decisions. -milan kundera

the god damn plane has crashed into the mountain!

I have recently been rereading all the posts i have made in the past. It seems, to me at least, that when i first started putting my thoughts down here...my writing was more honest...and sometimes even a tad bit humorous (at least to myself, hey if you can make one person laugh). Maybe, i haven't been taking myself seriously for a long time...whatever the reason, i am disconcerted. And have the desire, need, to change things.
Not even just to change things in this blog but to change things i am doing in my life. I am certain that i have not entirely been taking myself seriously in many aspects for quite some time now. I have been planning a trip for about 8 months now and find that i am no closer to leaving than i was when i started. The desire is there, the yearning, the needing, but something inside this silly little head of mine has been slowing me down. This needs to change. No more postponing..."This will not stand, man."

So i am setting a date. Enough is enough. "The god damn plane has crashed into the mountain!"

not all who wander are lost

i am wandering through this life just hoping for the things that make me happy...it's not to hard to know what these things are when you find them...suppose it is the search that makes it difficult...so instead of searching i suppose i will keep wandering.

A dust covered window obstructs the view...
and somewhere on the opposite side...a endless sky of blue.
A shattered heart conceals the truth...
a miraculous passion within the depths of you.
A fearful soul disguises the way...
to an endless road of happiness, one can only really know today.
A bitter past shrouds a hopeful future
with the dismal convictions of what cannot be.

Were one to wake each morning with thoughts of only the day ahead.
And lay down to rest with simply the intention of tomorrow.
To forget the mysterious future with thoughts of only here and now.

To never fear tomorrow is to know we can only be alive in this moment.
Silence the shattered heart, for it is your past.
Quiet the fearful soul, for it speaks not for today.
Listen only to the blissful heart for it speaks of what we know to be.
A love we have found within ourselves, a future that is impossible to see.
This very moment in time is all that can matter if a heart is truly allowed to be free.


Molly 2009

figured it out

So for once in my life i think i have really finally figured a few things out. Good things

Goals for the Next year...

Read my friends and realized i should have my own.

1. Go to Vegas, Denver, and Costa rica(for a month) in March.
2. Get a job with southwest airlines.
3. Work on going back to school.
4. Always be myself...no matter what.
5. Love as much as I can...
6. Be passionate about life.

I should just buy this ticket

Holy crap i found a multicity ticket to vegas, denver, costa rica, and back to austin for about $550. i need to just buy this ticket and that will make me bust my ass and save the money that i need to head to costa rica for a month and a week in the other cities. Holy shit!!! I am excited. If the price is the same at the end of the week i am just going to buy it. Hooray me!!!

so costa rica...when shall i see you again.

I have not been able to get into a cedra study or save an obscene amount of money...so costa rica seems to get pushed back over and over again. When will i see it again. It appears it will be sometime this summer...and i will be going even if only for two weeks. I am going to push for april or may. Wish me luck.