I posted this a few months ago...but i really like it soooo...

"Twenty years from now....
... you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” - Mark Twain

Love is the answer. Someone to love is the answer.

Merry Christmas!

New Year! New Resolutions!

Last year I made a few promises to myself...or what one may call resolutions...
Looking at them i have realized that i accomplished most but not all of them.
* I did "work" on going back to school but never actually did it.
* With the help of my amazingly stupendous super awesome boyfriend, i DID go to Las Vegas!
* I did not go to Costa Rica but instead went to Guatemala which was absolutely amazing!
* I have not gotten a Job with SAID airline but i am Still working on it.
* I HAVE definitely loved all that i can and been passionate about life.

SOOOOO...
New Year...New dreams.
2010.

1. South Africa! Travel as much as possible.
2. Write more...i used to write poetry all the time, i used to love it, even if it wasn't great I loved writing.
3. Don't forget the camera...i have a great camera and love to take photos.
4. Spend more time outdoors, I love the outdoors.
5. Be less stressed about the small stuff.
6. Make a million dollars!!! (hey, we need to have our dreams)
7. Do more for the ones i love, and be better about showing and telling them i love them.
8. Volunteer. I really feel like i have the time to help, so i should help others.
9. Love as much as i can and be passionate everyday.
10. Finish my resume. And be happy with it.
11. Find a career. Something out there that i will love and get paid to do.
I think i need to cut it here because too much can be overwhelming.
And i feel that sometimes i expect too much of myself and end up disappointed.
Actually I'll add one more.

12. Have No expectations.
So i suppose this and #9 should be the only thing on my list.

;-)

People too weak to follow their own dreams Will always find a way to discourage yours.

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I cannot emphasize and/or describe how much i love bananas!!!

I wish i was the verb "to trust" and never let you down.

Eddie Vedder

What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

A ship in a harbor is safe, but that's not what ships were made for.

This one is for the girl(personal ramblings)

These days i think a lot. More and more, i am afraid. Of what lies ahead, of what i have left behind. Yet I have no regrets. The world can only get better, with all the hope i have in my heart.
The sun has to shine! But sometimes we walk through life blind. Tell me, is the view from the top of the mountain as gorgeous when you don't have anyone with whom to share it? Is a song as beautiful if you have no other to which you can compare it? Could happiness exist without sorrow? Could love be alive without hate. The sun cannot rise if it never sets. At every beginning there is an end.

Pandora Radio is my new favorite thing.

Dire Straits...such a great song.

Dire Straits- Romeo and Juliet

This is the first day of the rest of your life...do something important with it.

Maybe i need to meditate.

my mind is constantly full of nonsense thoughts that need to exit out the side door.

"there aint no surer way to find out whether you like people or you hate people than to travel with them." - Mark Twain

For Justin ;-)

“The Sunscreen Song” by Baz Luhrmann

it's late...3 more days!!!!

my bob dylan cd will not burn onto my laptop...grrrrr. My boyfriend is absurdly sunburned ;-( poor guy...sunburns really suck. I have no idea why, at 1am, i am not even remotely tired. It is about time to MAKE myself go to bed >:-( grrrr.
But on the sunny side of life(sorry boyfriend) 3 more days till the big trip yippeee!!!!

The other day my sister asked me why i am always saving for vacations...i didnt know what to say except "what else is there to save for?"

Counting Crows last night=Awesome. Trip in 10 days= Awesome
Me= Awesome ;-)

I love this song.

Harvest Moon ;-) Neil Young.

Things i need to practice harder at...

Practice Gratitude when you feel good and when you feel unfulfilled
Clear the Path, let go of relationships, things and habits that aren't serving growth
Observe without attachment or taking things personally
Let go of the "story" and the expected 'outcome' of everything (being selective here doesn't work)
Tell the truth
Notice the dance between your faith and your action
Recognize the information within and around you
Align with Integrity
Channel Creativity
Love Completely from whatever distance is appropriate

I AM a woman.

Without super powers or surgery i have no way of changing this... Often i try...i do try...i really try...but in the end i AM, well, I am just, Deep down, just me...me. My feelings get hurt, i over analyze(and try to under analyze to make up for it). I THINK about everything way too much...I TALK...all the time...I listen because i care ...I try to work out everything OUTLOUD!
I cry, I pout, I...am, well, a woman...something I take a great deal of pride in, actually...simply because...I AM A WOMAN...I feel, I feel too much, I love, love too much, i see, I see too much...I talk, I talk way too much. This is...is...ME. I am the person i am, And simply because i choose to be..........me. I could try even harder to be less of who i am but the truth is....why not Talk too much, feel too much, love too much, think too much, analyze too much....why not?...just live as much as you can, Live as much as you are allowed? I see no reason to be less of the person i have grown to be.

Away We Go

tonight...8pm.
I'll tell you about it later.

Loved it, loved it, loved it (enough to see it again)did i mention that i loved it...dave eggers and Vendela Vida you rock.

Is this my Answer?

Horoscope Capricorn-

Sure, you have a lot of decisions to make right now -- but don't think that you have to spend the same amount of time making each one! Prioritize and act more quickly than you usually do. Don't waste too much time mulling things over. Your gut is going to help you make the right choices, so use it. Too much research and deliberation will paralyze you. Act without really knowing what outcome will be, and things will be most favorable for you.

something has got to give

I feel as if life as i know it right now needs some remodeling.
And i don't mean the go out and by a new outfit or a cool lamp kind of remodeling.
I am chewing on the idea of going back to school and getting another degree.
But mainly what i want is some change in my everyday life...i am verging on being dog tired. I am not unhappy, on the contrary, i am very happy with most of my world currently. But, I need to acquire a new position in life. I require some bearing, focus, intent, I am simply adrift at the moment and i am growing weary. I don't know if what I NEED is a new job but i am feeling that the scale is tipping in that direction. So it seems i need to sit down or stand up and figure out exactly what all of this means and DO something about it!

This song makes me happy.

Joe Purdy-Wash Away

My House This lovely saturday...

What i'm listening to...

David gray- you're the world to me

What i'm looking at...
There is even dog hair in my flowers :-)

Heat advisory in Texas...it is going to be hot in Texas today...TIPS ON HOW TO KEEP COOL...stay inside...thanks for the heads up news team.

A weekend of absolutely no drinking...this SHOULD be a good thing. Right?

Choose Your own Adventure Books...

were awesome as well...

Willow Davis Roberts

When i was a kid she was quite possibly my favorite writer.

simple as it should be
Tristan Prettyman

A day with with the Dad

Had a blast with my dad last night. I forget how much i really like him. Yes, of course i love him but i really like him too. He is abrasive and loud, he can't tell a story without being extremely passionate. But for some reason it makes me laugh...probably because i see it in myself as well. He has, for the last 14 years or so, been someone with whom i can really just be myself, laugh, talk about the things that bother me, talk about the things that are making me happy, he always knows what to say to make me feel better about any situation, and just generally someone with whom i can have a great time.

a day with the dogs

I love days off. You wake up(whenever you desire), brush your teeth(hopefully, if you still have all of them), and spend you day doing whatever it is your heart fancies(and your pocketbook can handle). You can see whomever you yearn to see. Read anything you have an inclination to read, relax, put your feet up, lay in a hammock(it may be a bit on the warm side here in Texas...100degrees, yowza), Go for a run, picnic in the park or take the dogs out to romp. Catch a movie or take a drive out to the lake...you get the point.
It however is always much better when you have more than one or two days to spend in whatever way seems fitting.

I had lunch today on my break at Baby Greens on South First. It was actually pretty freaking good. I had a great salad with a spicy lime dressing. This was the first time that i have ever eaten here and i must say that i will most definitely return.

"I began dividing life in absolutes... Things and people were either perfectly bad, or perfectly good, and when life didn't obey this black-and-white rule, when things or people were complex or contradictory, I pretended otherwise. I turned every defeat into a disaster, every success into an epic triumph, and separated all people into heroes or villains. Unable to bear ambiguity, I built a barricade of delusions against it. "
— J.R. Moehringer (The Tender Bar: A Memoir)

somebody loved

somebody loved...deb talan

""I hate when people ask what a book is about. People who read for plot, people who suck out the story like the cream filling in an Oreo, should stick to comic strips and soap operas. . . . Every book worth a damn is about emotions and love and death and pain. It's about words. It's about a man dealing with life. Okay?" "
— J. R. Moehringer

Today...I don't believe in saving for retirement

...i believe in living simply for today.
I believe in moments, i believe in minutes, i believe in time. It passes, it never ceases, it lives on beyond mine. I believe in knowing, in wanting, in yearning to define, I believe in relaxing, in searching without reason or rhyme. In poets and painters and artists alike. In wandering; in finding a simplicity in life. I believe in joy and in sorrow...in anger and in fear. In forgetting and forgiving. In what lies in the distance and in what is simply unclear. I believe in you and in me. In our hardship; in our ease. In our yearning and our desire to simply be free.
Molly 09

"Twenty years from now....

... you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” - Mark Twain

people

People constantly amaze me.
People consistently annoy me.
People rarely shock me.
It is the people who walk gracefully through life that I respect.
I respect the fact that in tough situations certain people carry themselves without ever showing anger or disrespect to anyone.
If only all of us could handle life with such grace.
I know that i definitely do not always know how to accomplish this.
I know that not every situation will please me...i am aware that the only way to handle situations that are making me less than happy would be to remove myself from said situation...however i do not ALWAYS take the graceful way out.
I only wish that i operated in this manner.
And for those whom are graceful, kind, respectful(even when it is less than deserved) i respect you.

ju ju ju di

\
Bob
Just like a woman

Happy 27 Soft as a Kitten.

not so "Important" things

i have an incredible knack for stalling until the very last moment...this in turn causes the chain of events making me about five min late for just about everything i do.
It IS only five minutes but five minutes late is, let's face it, still LATE.
I consciously know that i do this but still have not been able to alleviate the problem.

Now this typically only goes for things that i am not excited to do...for example; work.
To be completely honest most things that i am excited about doing i am usually early.
Meeting someone i like, getting on a plane(cept you have to be early, but i would even if i didnt have to), seeing a movie, catching a train, I think you get the picture.
It gets even worse for things i really don't enjoy doing. I procrastinate things such as getting my car inspected(which i took care of recently, two months late i might add). What i find odd is that i used to be extremely good at taking care of "IMPORTANT" things right away. Don't know why this has changed? Don't get me wrong... I pay my bills, I have not destroyed my credit, or become overly irresponsible. But i have noticed that priorities have changed. I would rather save my money and go on a trip than use it to pay back my credit card and become debt free. I don't know what the point of all this is...it's just something i have noticed about myself in the last few years or so.

Happy Cinco de Mayo (Another excuse to drink Day)

While you enjoy drinking beer today...i will be serving it. ;-) Hooray.

it only took seven years but....

i finally made it onto the El Arroyo sign.

i think for my sanity...i need to get out of town for a bit...take at least a week off and go somewhere inexpensive...but where?

shoo fly don't bother me!!!

it's my cake. and the damn fly keeps trying to make me share. Well news flash to all the flies in the world...i don't like to share my cake. I'll share my garbage or my leftovers but HELL if i will share my cake. So back off!!!

Last night was near perfect...

Cake was awesome!!! I had a blast. And the Mavs finished off the spurs!!!

Cake!!! Tonight!!! don't care which song they play...i love them all!!!

Love you madly
Cake (comfort eagle)

Great bumper sticker the other day.

My Honor Student has a career in the Service Industry

Life is short -- Break the rules! Forgive quickly. Kiss slowly. Love truly. Laugh uncontrollably. And never regret anything that made you smile.

Matt Costa
Yellow Taxi

2-1

GO MAVS!

When you’re searching your soul
When you’re searching for pleasure
How often, pain is all you find
But when you’re coasting along and nobody’s trying too hard
You can turn around and like where you are


The Sundays

IS

leaving

my aunt molly's house always smelled like Lysol disinfectant spray... i miss that smell.
traveling, i would always smell the exhaust from the countless buses and bus stations i spent an immense amount of time traveling through... i know it's strange but...i miss that smell.
I absolutely love the smell of the ocean, the sand. I miss that smell.
Bananas are my absolute favorite fruit, i eat them almost everyday... hopefully i will never miss this smell.


to be continued.

I have an insane desire lately to write...but whenever i sit down and try to write i come up blank. I am trying to overcome this...writers block but the truth is i havent written anything in quite some time that i feel had any substance. *sigh*
I'll figure it out one of these days just as i always do...right now i am just rambling...hoping that in my rambles something amazing will decide to surface...yeah who am i kidding..amazing...i dont think so.

It is time to buy a plane ticket.

Molly kinda wants to go into hiding.

my kids...so to speak.

I absolutely love the spring time...it makes me incredibly happy.

Kitchen Chair

I found this...i wrote it a few years ago and i have to say it is one of my favorites.



There she has sat for many years and doubtless will for more.
Solitary upon her kitchen chair with her eyes directed towards the door.
For a time, she had unquestionable tenderness, that long ago set adrift.
It slipped away not hastily but with each passing tide would shift.
Upon the day it left her she ceased to feel complete.
And now she spends her lonely days perched upon this seat.
Waiting, listless, longing for that feeling of tenderness to return.
But now this task she has set before her remains her one concern.
To wait, to watch, silently in her space.
For another chance, another time or place.
She imagines there it stands, waiting, just out of her sight.
But never leaving her kitchen chair has now become her plight.
To search she feels she musn't. To leave she somehow fears.
What if in her searching it simply returns after all these years.
The longing, completely consuming, the desire always there.
For now she remains waiting, solitary, upon the kitchen chair.

Molly 2007

"Get a Bicycle. You will not regret it, if you live" Mark Twain.

I lived.

I now have too many hangers...and need to go to buffalo exchange with most of the ridiculously large pile of clothes now on my bedroom floor. But first...i am headed to go check out a new camera para mi. Then to the greenbelt with Liam. Then possibly to Ginger man for pint night. Who knows...it is an absolutely gorgeous day outside.

Molly is going to run away

You're Sitting in a chair...IN THE SKY!

I am tired. However i have no desire to sleep. Life is just making me tired. I want it to be June 15th. I want to be on a plane. I want to be trekking through a cloud forest. Or wandering through a loud market. Sleeping in an uncomfortable bed, that makes me homesick. Hiking up a volcano to watch the sunrise. Sitting with my feet in the sand on a beach I've never been to; staring out at the waves crashing. Waking up somewhere new. Riding on a loud uncomfortable bus. Talking to someone I've never met in a language i don't know very well. Writing those i miss. Spending all day walking, taking pictures, experiencing life, eating, seeing...living.

panama

Since i didn't make it down this way last trip to central America...i have decided to add panama to the itinerary

To Do List

1. Purchase plan ticket.
2. Purchase a new camera.
3. Save Mucho Mas dinero. (time to settle down with spending for a bit)
4. Pick up some extra shifts at work.
5. Find a dog sitter for my animal friends.
6. Pack my bags and get ready to go...
7. Cause i'm leavin on a jet plane.

Tell me do you believe
In the girl that is me
With her feet to your feet
Well that’s all that I need

Cause time will go
And we may be
Far apart I know
But as far as I can see
This is so good
There’s no need for change
It’s alright with me
It’s as simple as it should be
Simple as it should be -----Tristan Prettyman

"Wisdom ceases to be wisdom when it becomes too proud to weep, too grave to laugh, and too selfish to seek other than itself."
Kahlil Gibran


"Love and doubt have never been on speaking terms."
Kahlil Gibran

Saving the Date.

the date is set...no later than June 15th...that now gives me three months...got to get it together. 2 weeks in Costa Rica and 2 weeks somewhere else.

cause i really liked this one.

human life occurs only once, and the reason we cannot determine which of our decisions are good and which are bad is that in a given situation we can make only one decision; we are not granted a second, third, or fourth life in which to compare various decisions. -milan kundera

the god damn plane has crashed into the mountain!

I have recently been rereading all the posts i have made in the past. It seems, to me at least, that when i first started putting my thoughts down here...my writing was more honest...and sometimes even a tad bit humorous (at least to myself, hey if you can make one person laugh). Maybe, i haven't been taking myself seriously for a long time...whatever the reason, i am disconcerted. And have the desire, need, to change things.
Not even just to change things in this blog but to change things i am doing in my life. I am certain that i have not entirely been taking myself seriously in many aspects for quite some time now. I have been planning a trip for about 8 months now and find that i am no closer to leaving than i was when i started. The desire is there, the yearning, the needing, but something inside this silly little head of mine has been slowing me down. This needs to change. No more postponing..."This will not stand, man."

So i am setting a date. Enough is enough. "The god damn plane has crashed into the mountain!"

not all who wander are lost

i am wandering through this life just hoping for the things that make me happy...it's not to hard to know what these things are when you find them...suppose it is the search that makes it difficult...so instead of searching i suppose i will keep wandering.

A dust covered window obstructs the view...
and somewhere on the opposite side...a endless sky of blue.
A shattered heart conceals the truth...
a miraculous passion within the depths of you.
A fearful soul disguises the way...
to an endless road of happiness, one can only really know today.
A bitter past shrouds a hopeful future
with the dismal convictions of what cannot be.

Were one to wake each morning with thoughts of only the day ahead.
And lay down to rest with simply the intention of tomorrow.
To forget the mysterious future with thoughts of only here and now.

To never fear tomorrow is to know we can only be alive in this moment.
Silence the shattered heart, for it is your past.
Quiet the fearful soul, for it speaks not for today.
Listen only to the blissful heart for it speaks of what we know to be.
A love we have found within ourselves, a future that is impossible to see.
This very moment in time is all that can matter if a heart is truly allowed to be free.


Molly 2009