To know Me(repeat)

i love to be alone. i should spend more time alone. i should spend less time alone. Books. i love to read. i need to read more. i need to read more books with substance. i need to only read what i love. i dont understand why people litter. i used to like smoking. i am glad i quit smoking. i like beer. i think drinking alcohol is silly. i dont want to have regrets in my life. i dont. i have tons of illusions. i love to travel. i miss my home and my friends when i am traveling. i miss traveling when i'm at home with my friends. i talk too much. i am too loud. i love being loud. i annoy myself. women annoy me. men annoy me. i love my friends. i am glad i have my friends. i dont like "girlie" girls. i love girl days. i like myself. i know what i want out of life. i know i may never have what i want. i will still try to get what i want. somehow i will get what i want. i love music. i adore the beach, the smell, the sound, the sand(yes the sand), the peace. i like poetry. i like to write poetry. i am not good at writing poetry. i want to be good at something. i am good at most things i attempt. i dont always attempt everything i want to. i should. i am going to. i know what it feels like to be in love. i know what it feels like to really be loved. i hope i may feel that again. i know how it feels to get hurt. i dont ever want to hurt anyone. i already have. i hope i never do it again. i come off too strong. i am not really bitchy or mean. i feel like people see me that way. i dont want people to see me that way. i hope that people dont see me that way. i hope people know that i am a nice person. does it matter if everyone knows that? i always try to do things to help others but never anything that anyone notices. i never thought i was pretty. i think people are strange. i think i am strange. i like being strange. i dont like whatifs. i wont ever wonder what if. i do what makes me happy. i am not always happy. i am happy right now. some people are convinced they know me. they dont really know me.